Do you really want to do it, or you just want to have power over others?

2026-07-15

I used to do many things to gain power over others. E.g, I’d post my vacation pictures without liking anyone else’s, I’d avoid social with “normies”, I’d put on a social mask in front of others, in front of who I think “worth less than” me.

This way of thinking gradually eroded my self worth as well. Cuz whenever I’m not being treated the way I want to be treated, I feel less than. That’s to say, my self value holds entirely on other’s response of me, made it fragile.

Now, I do things purely because I want & I can. I don’t want to have power over others as it’s unhealthy, and not good for building genuine connections. I do things, I work, I create purely based on enjoyment. And having power over others, manipulating them, is not something I want anymore.